Stay with me. :)

Friday, January 29, 2010

When he thought things would change, he decided to pop in to take a look. Then again, a leopard would never change it's spots. He would not change, and she would believe. It was all he could do to keep his mouth shut. Only a fool would not understand. But yet, he was not confident. It seemed at the time, that all he was surrounded by were fools.

Ugh. If he really loves her, he'd do everything in his power to make her happy. I don't see him doing that. Selfish bastard. Seriously, some people need to reflect. Love someone, then make her cry. Wtf is his problem? Go love a wall or something. *growl*. Then hide in extremely conspicuous places and inconvenience other people. What kinda logic is that? If a person lies once, I don't expect a truthful answer any longer. You're lucky. Do you really think that what you're doing is right? Rhetorical question. Damn it. Those tactics are downright lowdown. Honestly, if you ask me, neither of you are ready for love, and what it means. Stop deluding yourselves. It's not going to work, really. This is reality. Not your world. It does NOT revolve around the crap you are sad about now. It will NOT end like your fairytale dreams. Nothings gonna change. You are making me loathe you. Don't take it too far.

Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams. :D

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me
And I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a....

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aah-ah
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a....

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aah-ah
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a....

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a....

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

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11:35 PM

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

As he rounded the corner, he wasn't prepared for what he saw. (description left out for obvious reasons). It looked so... wrong. It wasn't supposed to be like that. But the truth lay before him. That was how it was. He could do nothing but pretend he was fine. But in his mind, he couldn't shake off the prodding of doubt that lay in him.

I may look like I don't care, but I'm in fact silently watching over you. I hope you understand that I can't bring myself to look like I do, while there's someone beside you. I don't want to be the cause of any misunderstanding between you 2, and no matter how you feel... Know that I will always be there for you. :)

GUMMY BEAR! :D

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11:56 PM

Thursday, January 21, 2010

If they really loved him, like they said they did, they would have asked, wouldn't they? But none of them did. Maybe they did notice, but... He didn't know what to make of it. Couldn't they at least show some concern? Even a random person noticed. The happiness in the day was so not enough to make up for the unrest for the rest of the day. Furthermore, he didn't see a smile at all. Not to him anyway. There was nearly nothing to be happy about for the day. His hand acted up again, during the Mother Tongue paper, and there was nothing he could do about it...

Eek. I hate doubts. They sow distrust and suspicion amongst people. But, but... It's in my nature to behave this way. I wanna change, but it's like so hard. And no1 will help. Well, not no1. But no1 CAN help. No1 will put in the time and effort. This is why I often feel so lonely. :(

Uprising - Muse
Paranoia is in bloom,
The PR transmissions will resume,
They'll try to push drugs that keep us all dumbed down,
And hope that we will never see the truth around
(So come on)
Another promise, another scene,
Another packaged lie to keep us trapped in greed,
And all the green belts wrapped around our minds,
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on)

They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
We will be victorious
(So come on)

Interchanging mind control,
Come let the revolution take it's toll,
If you could flick a switch and open your third eye,
You'd see that
We should never be afraid to die
(So come on)

Rise up and take the power back,
It's time the fat cats had a heart attack,
You know that their time's coming to an end,
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend

They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
We will be victorious

Pikachu !

8:36 PM

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

After a long sleep, he woke up. Instead of it getting better, as he had hoped, his muscles seemed to have stiffened. -.-. As he dragged himself off the bed, pain coursed through nearly every muscle of his body, except his left arm. He couldn't even lift his bag up. Then again, he had no school that day. So it was kind of well timed. Pfft. The day ahead would be extremely boring. He thought about the activities of the previous day. The humanities paper. He had definitely failed it. And there would be no excuses this time. Not one anyone would accept anyway.

Eek! This ache sucks! The humanities paper. I gone le. *waves bye bye* So I study so hard, then in the end leh? Cannot write properly at all. What excuse should I give? Lol. Nothing stands for anything anyway. Just being useless through and through. I wanna go to a JC. If this shit happens during the O's? I'm done for. It won't make a difference no matter how much I work. It all turns to ashes and dust. All my efforts are for naught, and the future ones will be the same. I'm discouraged already. This is just how it's meant to be, isn't it?

Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson.

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have work out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop

[Chorus]
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

[Chorus]

You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

[Chorus]

You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Pikachu !

12:10 PM

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Meh, will skip my lousy attempt at a descriptive paragraph today. I'm just gonna whine. My right hand is literally disabled. When I try to use it, it starts aching like hell. Both my legs feel like jelly. They look like jelly too. :X.

Pikachu !

9:04 PM

Monday, January 18, 2010

It was like a dream, every single time he felt a teensie weensie out of place, her smile would put his smile back on. There was no need for words, really. Yet it was just so unreal. Then, snapping back to his thoughts, he realised that there was little or no hope. It just wasn't meant to be that way. Reluctantly, he tore his gaze away and forced himself to concentrate on something else. Addictions were terrible to bear. He didn't want to, but just generally looked in that direction unknowingly.

Me no likey. It looks so right, yet looks so wrong again. I know it isn't supposed to be, but that's what daydreams are for. I don't like it. :(
Smile, smile more. I smile along. But, deep in my heart, I feel empty. Meh. I suppose I've been feeling like this for ages. It'll probably go on forever. But then, I desperately want it to stop. Then again, wanting means you'll never get it. Haha. :(
She can do whatever she want to me, but I'll still forgive her. Lol. That's how it is. :)

Pieces - Sum 41
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I'd thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy that nothing could save me
But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

On my own!

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

Pikachu !

8:25 PM

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

As he felt panic coursing through his body, he remembered the things that had happened barely a few hours before, and realised who the culprit was. It was so obvious, the tiny signs and gestures... Besides, who else would be that frickin stupid to do that? Then, as it dawned upon him, rage welled up inside him, anger boiled inside of him. It was all he could do to slam a palm against the wall, and as it smarted, his anger grew stronger. It was unlike any he had ever felt before. It was rage of a sort only frenzied madmen would become. Yet, as a message popped up on the screen of the computer, all his anger immediately dissipated, and it was as though the raging waves just subsided, the storm over.

Meh. I'm still pissed off at that bitch. I won't even talk to him from now on. He didn't even bother apologising. In fact, he even looked happy! For fuck's sake, what in blazes was wrong with him? Bloody hell, just cause he can't control his bloody emotions doesn't mean he can do whatever he likes! To be honest, that's the last straw. He's pissed me off too often, and he's no longer my friend.

*growl*

P.S. Now I'm cranky. Zzz.

It's not over - Daughtry.

I was blown away
What could I say
It all seemed to make sense.
Your takin' away everything
And I can't do without.

I try to see the good in life.
But good things in life are hard to find.
We're blowin' away, blowin' away
Can we make this something good?

Well I'll try to do it right this time around
It's not over,
Try to do it right this time around
It's not over
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin' me
But you're the only one
It's not over.

I've taken all I can take
And I cannot wait
We're wastin' too much time
Bein' strong, holdin' on
Can't let it bring us down

My life with you means everything
So I won't give up that easily
Blowin' away blowin' away
Can we make this something good?

Well I'll try to do it right this time around
It's not over,
Try to do it right this time around
It's not over
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin' me
But you're the only one
It's not over.

You can't let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don't get caught up in yourself
Let it out.

Let's start over
Well try to do it right this time around
Its not over
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin' me
But you're the only one
It's not over.

Lets start over
Its not over
This love is killin' me
But you're the only one
It's not over

Pikachu !

7:59 PM

Friday, January 8, 2010

He re-read the message over and over again. It finally began to sink in. He was a fool. It was futile trying, really. But he couldn't help it. The raw reality of the matter hurt terribly. His heart froze, and it would get hit by a gust of hot wind, then thaw, hurting terribly in the process. Then it would freeze again. Over and over again. Plunged into his heart, was a black knife of pure misery.

:'(
Freak.

Secrets - One Republic

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, All my secrets away

Pikachu !

8:09 PM

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

A pit forming at the bottom of his stomach, he felt a wave of nausea wash over him, and the familiar pain. It had been like that for weeks. He didn't know how to stop it, prevent it nor what was causing it. He could only grit his teeth and try to withstand it.

Sian, it hurts like crap luh. K, slept for abt an hour. Gotta get back to work. Still have EL compo, POA, and that wild lost chem worksheet. X.x. I can't finish all by tmr, and I gotta go early to meet Ms Chin for the E-Maths hol hw. Oh well, at least I'll learn sth. I feel like going quiet. Mm, will try it out tomorrow.

So... Here are the lyrics to About A Girl - The Academy Is. :P

One song about a girl
Can't breathe when I'm around her
I'll wait here everyday
In case she'll scratch the surface
She'll never notice

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

Last night I knew what to say
But you weren't there to hear it
These lines so well rehearsed
Tongue tied and overloaded
You'll never notice

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl.
I'm not in love
This is not your song
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl.

To be loved, To be loved
what more could you ask for?
To be loved, To be loved
everyone wants
To be loved, To be loved
what more could you ask for?
To be loved, To be loved
Everyone...
I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

I'm not in love
(To be loved, To be loved, what more could you ask for?)
This is not your song
(To be loved, To be loved, everyone wants)
I'm not gonna waste these words
(To be loved, To be loved , what more could you ask for?)
About a girl.

Pikachu !

9:13 PM

Sunday, January 3, 2010

As he allowed the music to wash over him, erasing the germs of doubt, he remembered something that was of great importance. School was starting the next day. And he had barely done his homework. -.-

HECK! I procrastinated so long. Crappy! Omgomgomgomg. :P.

Oh well, gonna do it now. Not gonna finish it, but I have a life! I won't stick around doing homework like a mind slave. Hehe.

Here's Suddenly I see - KT Tunstall. :D

Her face is a map of the world
is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

Chorus: (2 x)
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on a word

Chorus: (2 x)
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page of a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower (yeah)

(5 x)
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see (yeah yeah)
(Suddenly I See)

Chorus: (2 x)
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

(2 x)
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

Pikachu !

3:27 PM

Friday, January 1, 2010

What appeared to be foggy, misty and suffocating, suddenly cleared for that moment. But it was enough, to remind him that all was not lost, and redemption was not after all impossible.

Silently, he mused over the events of the past year, contemplating his future. It looked bleak, if he were to continue on the same path he had taken for the past 2 years. The finishing line loomed ahead of him, mocking and jeering at him, for he would never reach it. He had to change his ways. Resolutely, he began on a new path, leaving the small one behind. It was always visible, just that he had shunned it, afraid of the labor. Now, he realized that that was the only way he could make up for the mistakes in the past. He could afford to make no more. It would decide his fate.

Happy New Year! :D
I'm gonna work hard from now on. O' levels beware! Bwahahaha!
To my dear mei, I love ya! The encouragement really helps. And my new year's resolution for the year...
Well, I'm gonna ace my O's! It looks impossible, but I will do it! :3

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Pikachu !

6:36 PM